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Today I received my first "big girl" RN paycheck with full-time hours.... It made me smile :)


It is such a weird thing, this "grown up" world. Working to pay for things... Seriously. What happened to living at home and not worrying about such things! But let's face it, while we were living at home we felt stressed and like we had no time. (Laughing in my past self's face)...

Growing up is a bitter sweet thing I say.

It feels nice being an adult. Having a "big girl" job. One that I worked so hard for. Feeling independent. Making my own decisions.

Then, there is a little voice that reminds me "Wow... you are really an adult." It makes me think of the next step in life. Children. I think of when I grew up, and think of my Mom.

I could be a Mom...

It may sound weird. I'm 24, and have been married for 5 years. Why am I thinking of this now you ask? There is no right or wrong way to living life. Some have children... Some get married... Some do both... Some stay single... And there is no "set" or "right" way to do these things. It's all a matter of what you decide!

I pictured in my head getting married, finishing school, and having babies. In that particular order. Sure, I have felt like an adult during the 6 years since high school. I've worked, made my own decisions, etc. etc. But, I think now that I think of being a Mom in the future, it seems a little more real. Apparently, I must subconsciously associate being a mom to being an adult? Hmmm... Not even true. Silly subconscious.

The thought of being a Mom one day excites and scares me! I have been DYING to have kids since James and I got married. But I knew that it wouldn't be happening for a LONG time. I think now that it seems like more of a reality, I'm a little caught off guard.

Well!

Those are my ramblings for the day. Maybe there are more of you out there who have felt like this as well. Or maybe I'm crazy... :)